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Tuesday, May 13, 2008

heartbreaking turn

No one ever said that International Adoption was easy, and we are here to testify that statement to be true.

We got some news today that our precious W and B will most likely not be coming home to our family.  We are devastated, but God is good and He is faithful.

We would appreciate your prayers.


Hauswife said...

My heart is breaking for you, sister... It was a privilege praying with you today and I will continue to intercede for you, Moody, and kids. God has a big, big plan for you, my friend. Somehow this is part of his grace and mercy. I know that doesn't help today, does it... For now it just sucks. Hang on to the fact that God the Father loves you all so much.
And I love you, too.

Heart Afire said...

He is never, ever, ever, ever, wrong.

And His answer is never "No."

It is sometimes "Not yet." (because of course He has perfect timing, and He's not going to mess up His perfect record just to let us have our way)

And sometimes it's "I have something better in mind."

We can't know what it is in your case; Isn't it good to know that we don't ever know a grief that He hasn't borne?
Let Him be your solace.

I just prayed for you and your family.

Misty said...

I will absolutely pray for you, for your heart and grace to walk through right now, and for your little ones.

Jocelyn said...

I am so sad for you and your family. Know that this community is grieving with you. Please call anytime you want to talk.
I send loads of Hugs to you over the next few days and weeks.

These Three Kings said... sweet friend.. i love you...
I am praying..
I love you

Lori said...

In the coming days or weeks it will be as clear and perfect as you could have ever dreamed...

God Bless you, Moody and those beautiful little blessings already residing in the great state of TX.

Parkers heart Alexanders

ps.. at bedtime tonight Nicholas (on his own) said another prayer to Jesus for you and that God would continue to hold you safe in the palm of his hand. No matter what the future holds.

The Redman's said...

I am so very sorry for you and your family. I can only imagine the love that you already have for these kiddos. I have prayed and will continue to pray for God's will to be done. I just know that this journey will end in the most amazing way ever!! God has wonderful plans for you and your family.


Jenny said...

Emily, (and Moody and kids...)
I'm so sorry. I truly hurt for you. I know these kids will forever hold a very special place in your hearts. Praying for God's love and comfort to be with you all in the coming weeks and months as you grieve...

Hold Me Jesus

Well, sometimes my life
Just don't make sense at all
When the mountains look so big
And my faith just seems so small

So hold me Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace

And I wake up in the night and feel the dark
It's so hot inside my soul
I swear there must be blisters on my heart


Surrender don't come natural to me
I'd rather fight You for something
I don't really want
Than to take what You give that I need
And I've beat my head against so many walls
Now I'm falling down, I'm falling on my knees

And this Salvation Army band
Is playing this hymn
And Your grace rings out so deep
It makes my resistance seem so thin


You have been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace

Angel said...

OH NO!! I am so so sorry. My heart just hurts for you. I pray God's heart is made clear to you as you wait on Him. Angel

Erica said...

Oh my sweet Em. My heart is so heavy for you tonight. I can't imagine the pain you all are feeling. God has big plans for you and your sweet family. It is an honor to know you. To pray for you, to stand in the gap for you as you struggle to make sense of this. Laurie said it best. THIS SUCKS! Cling to Jeremiah 29:11 - rest in the loving arms of our Saviour as He leads you in His will. His plan are not always our plans, He loves us perfectly.

Ellen said...

I'm truly crushed. Love you guys and will pray that everything works out for your good and God's glory.

Stacy Ann said...

Oh Em and everyone! I am so very sorry! We will be praying for you. Y'all are such a living testament to what it means to "walk the walk". My heart is breaking for you and I will pray for all of you.
Love you!!

Shannon and Brett Hilliard said...

Soooooo sorry guys. Ugh. I was just talking to Shannon on the phone and relaying the bad news. We totally relate, and feel your pain. Will be praying for God's best to be obvious, and His grace to embrace. Brett

Misty said...

it warms my heart to read the outpouring of support and encouragement from your blogging family. i don't have lots to say on what has happened except that my heart hurts for ya'll. i know God is in control of it all, and i really like what "heart afire" said about the answer not being "no" but sometimes "not yet". still, it's hard. love you all

Annette said...

I know you and Moody are holding on to Christ who will lift your head and show you His plan in time.

Know that you are loved and prayed for and we morn the loss of having those little precious ones in our covenant family.

solas4me said...

Our family will be praying for you. Remember that our God does all things perfectly, according to his own good will. It is difficult indeed to hold every thought captive to him when we are faced with these great trials, but know that all things are done for his glory.

The Darlings
A Darling Life

the Steiger's said...

I am so sorry. I will pray for you and your family. Oh this must be so hard.
love, Lenka

Shannon said...

I have never posted before, but I have been reading your blog since you first starting waiting in August. I love the title of your blog. I am so very sorry. I will be praying for you and your children in this hard time. You are going to be an amazing family for the kids God brings to you. I will also pray for these little ones who may not come home to you that God will hold them close and keep them safe.

Shannon--Emeline's (who has been home 3 months from Guatemala) Mommy

Rebecca said...

The Winters are praying for your whole family.

homeschoolmomrookie said...

I am so heart aches for you, Moody, and the kids. I know that you are waiting on His perfect timing. We will continure to pray for those choosen to be in your family.

Jess said...

Oh my goodness. I am so so so sorry.

There is nothing else to say but I am praying for you and your family.

TedTracie said...

My heart is breaking for you!

Praying for you and knowing that GOD HAS A PLAN and trusting in that plan!

I adore you

the albertsons said...

Praying for you all. I'm heartbroken with you and pray that God will heal you and carry you through this time.


i don't have any special words for you except I love you so much ... I love your heart, I love your faith, and I love that your heart is breaking for these children because that is how deeply you love ... You are an amazing woman and I know God will love and carry you through this ...

Give yourself a hug from Thelma and Louise because if we were there we would be taking off to get ice cream, riding around w/Brad in a convertible, and screaming at the top of our lungs ...

I love you dear friend and I am here for anything you need !!!

Chris & Lindsey Wheeler said...

Oh Emily, I am weeping right now with you!! The pain is so great...I know. I am praying for a miracle right this second!!!!!

Shanna said...

Em, Mood, Hill, Wick, Avery, Issy, May the Lord pour out His grace on the Alexander family today. We pray that His perfect plan will be revealed so soon. Can't wait to hug you all next week. Definitely some good Mexican lovin' from the Mateo and Marco is in order. Love, Aunt Shanna, Mateo and Marco

Craig and Jaclyn said...

my heart goes out to you. Praying for you.

Jennifer said...

Oh my goodness, Emily... I can't even imagine. My heart is hurting for you.
In my finite knowledge, I hope that all works out for you.
In God's infinite knowledge, He knows that all will be well not only for you but for those two beautiful children in Ethiopia.
May you feel our prayers and His peace.

Keri said...

I only started reading your blog recently and I am so, so, sorry. I hope that your dreams come true. God is good and He adores W and B even more than you.


Anonymous said...

You know I'm praying for you guys and hurting with you right now...God is good and He has a plan...And I can't wait to see it unfold. I love you guys so much!

Holli said...

Emily.... words can not express my thoughts, hurts and prayers for your family.
Praying Praying Praying!

Jana said...

OH Emily! I am so sorry. It's such a loss. Michael and I will be praying for your hearts.

With Love,


homeschoolmomrookie said...

Thanks for having Andrea call. I appreciate her giving me the info

Love ya

Pattie & Rob said...

My heart aches for your family. I know there are no words to ease pain. All I can say is that I am praying for your family and for the babies in Ethiopia.

Kelley said...

Em & Mood, You know that my heart is broken with yours! I deeply feel your pain! I loved W & B already as our own! I have said all I can on the phone with you, but I wanted to give you this that the Lord directed my attention to this morning as I was praying for you:

"Thus says the Lord God: 'Behold, I will lift up my hand to the nations, and raise my signal to the peoples; and they shall bring your sons in their bosom, and your daughters shall be carried on their shoulders. Kings shall be your foster fathers and their queens your nursing mothers.....those who wait for Me shall not be put to shame.......for I will contend with those who contend with you, and I will save your children."
Isaiah 49:22-23, 25b

May His grace and peace carry you these days ahead as you draw on Him and as you are loved by all of your sweet friends! I love you!! Kelley

Amber said...

I'm so sorry. We have gone through a similar situation before and it's amazing how much you can miss someone you have never met. Now we have started the process again. I'm praying for you. You are right, Gos has a plan for them and for your family.

kristen said...

Praying for you all...

Kimberly Baggett said...

i am truly sorry for your heartbreak...however, the Lord will sustain you and He is holding you in His righteous right hand! Rest in the peace of His grace and be comforted by His sovereignty...

He knows your pain, He knows your fears, He knows your heart....your words on this post shows your faithfulness to Him and He will receive all the glory!

2 Corinthians 4:7-9 says, "But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed."

praying fervently for you and your family!

Steve & Danae said...

Praying for you....


Anonymous said...

Em, Moody and Gang,

Our family is heartbroken for your family. I can't imagine the pain you and the kids are going through.

This too shall pass. And W and B will always be in your prayers. I'm so sorry this has happened.

We love you guys. Please let us know if there is ANYTHING we can do. You know I am always here as a sounding board.

Been thinking of you all night and all day today. Hang in there.


kanowlees said...

Our hearts are with you all. We are praying for strength and encouragement for you. Not that you haven't heard it already...but there really is a masterful plan, and this is somehow part of it. We love you guys!

Shawn and Jami said...

Sweet Emily! Know that we will be praying for all of you.

shawn and jami

Eric & Tara said...

I am so sorry, my sweet friend! I am praying for so much comfort and peace right now in your heart...God is so good and I am praying for him to let your sweet spirit rest in that truth. Love you.

Kristy -Mom to 4 and soon to be more! said...

Oh Emily, I am devastated with you and I am so so sorry! Your family is in my prayers!

Amy said...

Moody and Emily,

I am so sorry.....The Bottomlys are so sad with you right now. Praying for you.....

Drew Carey Show said...

Emily, Moody & kids, we are so heartbroken with you over this turn of events. I spoke with Pam today from work before I read your blog and gasped at the news. We are praying for you, hurting with you and filled with hope that you will be filled with peace and clarity over your next steps -- and of course that God will not only fulfill the desires of your heart but care for the needs of these beautiful children all the way across the globe. All our love, Carey

Katy said...

Emily, Moody and crew,

There are no words I can think of that haven't already been said. I will be thinking of you and hoping for the best for everyone involved. I'm so sorry.

Jennifer said...

I keep checking your blog, just hoping that all is well with you.

Gurskes said...

Prayers for your family Em..this journey is a test of many things, and faith being one of them.

My heart aches for you all


These Three Kings said...

cant stop thinking about you.. I am praying so remember what Jan Beazly said in her book." we have the PROMISE, HE HAS THE PLAN"
Remember what he said to you in the begining about this process coming to pass....remember how it turned out for the Beazly's when they endured through this very same trial...

you just continue to PRAY with out doubting as your faith is and obey
and remember his wonderful promises to you... I love you dearly

Blessed x 5 said...

God must have some seriously amazing plans for your family! Thank you for being such a good witness for Christ during this journey. We will be praying for your family.
Heather Sears
adopting 4 from Ghana

Melinda said...

Prayers are with you and your family! How devestating this is, but God has a bigger and better plan then we can ever imagine.

Melissa said...

Ya'll are loved beyond words. Praying and interceding before our Lord for you, B, and W.

Carpenters said...

I can't imagine how difficult this must be for you. I will be praying for you,your family, W and B.


Monica said...

Emily, I'm so sorry. You are all in our prayers.

Monica and Henry

Renee said...

we're so sorry to hear this so sad news, your family is in our thoughts and prayers.

whittakerwoman said...

The grief, I can not even imagine! So sorry. keep us posted. H

The Roberts Family said...

Oh guys .... I just now found out looking at your blog. I am SO SORRY!!! .... will you email me? .... there's someone(s) I met on our recent trip that stole my heart away. I feel burdened to tell you about them. Much, much love dear sister ...... I will be praying for God's presence to just be in abundance on your family right now. ~Shelly

Patti said...

Em -
God works in mysterious ways . . . Drew called tonight and said he had been following your blog . . .your family is his hero! He could not wait for you to get W & B .. . I had never logged onto the blog until tonight and saw your news. I immediately called Drew - we are praying . . . praying for a miracle . . . all things are possible with our Good Lord. Keep one foot in front of the other and hang in there -
Love you sweet friend!


MissHannah said...

This truly is a heartbreaking turn. I will be praying for you all.

~Laura~ said...

oh no! I'm so so sorry. :( My heart breaks for you guys. Covering you in prayer! ((hugs))

Tymm said...

hey guys - I do not know the circumstances surrounding this - but I do know this - when Brighton passed away it was easily the hardest and darkest time Laura and I had ever experienced.

We are praying - praying - praying for you. And then I think we're gonna pray some more.

God is good - and when you continue to praise Him during these times you become a lighthouse for His greatness.

Man. I am so sorry. So very sorry. It took us a while and we still grapple with making sense of it all - but one thing we firmly believe is that God is good and He loves us and He loves when we love Him - regardless of our situation.

Stay strong in your faith.

Wendi said...

...just getting home from a week away and wow! what sad news for my new friends. You are most certainly in our thoughts and prayers...especially your sweet kids who are struggling to understand (I know that has to be one of the hardest parts for you). So much uncertainty, and still Jesus is holding those precious children that you want to hold.

Anonymous said...

I don't know your story, I don't know who you are, and I don't know where you're from, but I know what that loss feels like. I came to your site by "accident." It was no accident. After 2 and 1/2 years our (my parents) adoption fell through. I've never ever been so heartbroken in my life, or known a pain so great. You are not alone. 3 years later I now have 2 sisters home, but I still carry the ones we lost in our hearts. There's a lot of questions I STILL have. I don't understand it, never will, but I know that this is the way things are supposed to be. I know what it's like. I stand here with my heart breaking for yours because I know that pain. Never give up if God has placed adoption on your hearts. Never let discouragement run it's course. Yes, grieve, but don't let it overcome you. I'm praying for you. You're not alone.

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